:'(...Hurt by everyone...:'(

How can I forget the days??? :

The day my bf and I broke up??
The day I stopped seeing sunshine in my life.
The day I found out the true meaning of sorrow,loneliness,pain,hate,tears and anger.

How can I be blamed??

But it seems as if EVERYTHING is my fault....

Why is it that I suffer so much??
Why is it that I need to be punished??
Why is it that I am being betrayed,used and thrown aside by my friends??
Why is it that I can't be someone else??
Why is it that everyone hates me??
Why is it that I'm always the one with problems??
Why is it that I feel like I've lost the key of friendship??
Why is it that I feel so left alone in the dark??

WHY IS IT MY WORLD IS SO FULL OF SORROW AND LONELINESS?

I just want to be happy.I just want to be what I used to be.I just want a simple life.Everytime I try my best to do something,I am always wrong,I am never right.Everything is blamed on me,but the praise always goes to someone else and not me.After what I did for you,all I got was blame,hate,anger and suffering.What's the use of trying to be a friend if this is what I get in the end?!!!???

When you need someone to be there for you,
I am always willing to be there.
But when I need you the most,
You give me excuses,
You just don't want to care!!
What's the use,I ask you??

This life just ain't FAIR!!!I'm always thrown aside by my friends,the 'friends' I thought could be TRUSTED.But now I know the truth:Nobody really cares.All they do is used me like a toy and after that,*POOF* the deed is done and so is this friendship.

Do you think it's very pleasant??Finding out that everyone has been lying to you,cheating you,playing with you and hurting you in the end??Do you think it's wonderful to love someone for a few years,but in the end you hurt yourself really badly even though you tried your best to forget that person??

Why is it that no one would understand me??Or even lend me a hand when I'm down??

I feel like a girl with no friends,no freedom,no family,no happiness and only SADNESS,LONELINESS and TEARS.

Why can't I just be like everyone else??Nobody spreads rumours about them and making others hate them.Why do people have to do this to me?? Am I that nice to be used as a target??

All I want is a true friend who would listen to me...